stressed

So my boss recently got a promotion and her position is now available. Over the last couple of weeks, I have found myself the target of multiple inquiries as to whether I will be applying for her position. It would be a promotion, with more responsibility and a little bit more pay. I also would gain managerial experience, something, which I do not currently have, and it would look good on my resume.

Despite all of these things I find myself hesitating. Why? Because if given the choice, I would rather be the worker bee as opposed to the big cheese. I don't particularly like telling people what to do, and I especially hate confrontations. I know that I’m just being a big chicken about the whole thing, but I can’t help it. It’s not that I don’t think I can do the job; it’s more like I’m comfortable where I am. I work full time, I have benefits, and things are good.

So I’ve been stressing over this for the last few days. Tomorrow is the last day to apply. I have my resume and cover letter printed and signed. It sits waiting, mocking me. Blerg.